biofire84

In which our hero describes those with who he has social interactions with in the city.

2006-10-16T20:58:44Z

I just wrote these out for chelsea to show her irish boy the subtleties between these three groups.

Emo- Taken from the term emotional.Normally restricted for those under the age of 17. This group normally enjoys proudly displaying their emotions derived from music written through life experiences they will never have. They can normally be found crying,getting drunk on O'Douhls, and writing bad poetry with images of dead unicorns lieing in dried up rivers during a cloudy afternoon. They view themselves as the only people in the world who experience pain and suffering, which is normally having their highschool sweetheart breaking up with them at its apex, rather than any real problems. They are sometimes confused with goth kids because of their use of makeup, and the fact that the males of the group can be found in womens jeans making for an androgenous look. They destroyed what started out as a promising music scene which began with Rites of Spring, Mineral etc. and turned it into a bunch of screaming ,three chords, and breakdowns with high whiny vocals.There musical taste is anything with alot of whining, which they can live vicariously through, or a hot lead singer with a penchant for teeny boppers who want to "rebel"
ex. Dashboard Confessional. Piebald etc

Hipster - a variation on the word hip, used to classify those who flock to a scene and try to be on the cutting edge. They are normally clothed in suede shows, glasses, and have multiple tattoos all of which have absolutly no meaning. The can normally be found in small dingy bars with a small stage, for "intimate" concerts with performers who really aren't that good, but whos repetoir can be recited the alpha male of the group who uses his trivial knowledge of obscure music as a status symbol. They want to be beatnicks but sadly where born too late, and can't make any real lasting art
examples of their taste include any band they can place on a t shirt and proudly announce they knew them before the EP came out
ex. Decemberists, Architecture in Helsinki, Manitoba etc

Scenester - (see hipster) A scenester is a hipster who doesn't really have a defined musical taste. They neeed to be in touch with the indie scene at all times, and through constant bar crawls trying to find back alley shows they have become drunks. They will only drink Pabst Blue Ribbon trying to add to the fact that they are poor sensitive artists, this is a blatent lie however because they most likely attend NYU and are bankrolled by their parents. They would suck you off for a dollar, if you told them it was the new biggest fad in europe, because they would want to take credit for its explosion in the US. They dress like want to be eurotrash, and can be found in thrift stores when not in bars. BIOFIRE84 (4:38:02 PM): They will listen to anything if you tell them it will be big in a year or so, or if the band only has a demo on cassette.
ex. Sigur Ros, Animal Collective, anything else that makes them feel pretentious

panic in jeffs head

2006-09-25T05:08:56Z

I've been having panic attacks (for lack of a better term) alot lately. I just lay awake and stare at the ceiling my heart tenses up,my breathing gets really shallow, and for some reason I just feel like Im going to cry. I don't know whats bringing it on or how to stop them. I just feel like Im slowly going down a road I don't want to be on. School started again which is good but at the same time I feel like I'm never going to do anything with my degree, or amount to anything. I feel like I'm always going to be that dunken ass and its how everyone sees me.I cut down on my drinking and have been hanging out in my new apt alot more but it just gives me more time to think, and it gets depressing. I know I have no real problems, but I just keep thinking I'll be bartending for a really long time and never complete most of my goals. On top of that I have this feeling deep down that I will be alone for a very long time, its not helping that alot of my friends have left the city and Im feeling more and more isolated. I really need to stop being hung up on little things/people.End of bitching, sorry about this post but Im going through an attack right now and I thought writing this down would help.

List of the things occuring over the weekend

2006-03-29T19:04:22Z

My life in a nutshell:

- Bestman at a Scientology wedding this weekend
- Giving a toast that I was complemented on. This was important because it meant I was able to hold my objections to the wedding in
- Smoking cigars and driving down the LA Freeway at 100 mph while singing Lost Prophets/RBF/TBS/Coheed
- Smoking more cigars and looking over the hollywood hills from a gorgeous upperdeck in the hotel
- Breakfeast in bed every morning
- Dealing with crazy people telling me that psychiatrists are the devil, and I should help there anti-psychiatry museums cause.
- Realizing L.Ron Hubbard was a horrid writer
- Hanging out in Santamonica, playing on the muscle beach equipment and smoking more cigars
- Eating really expensive steaks
- Realizing JP is still basically the same kid as when he left

War

2006-02-24T21:19:11Z

I declare war on Matt!

V-Day

2006-02-10T09:20:46Z

Soooooo............ last year was one of the only times I have ever acknowledged Valentines day as a real holiday, why does it feel weird to be alone this year? Shouldn't it be like the other 17 when I didn't by into holidays manufactured by greeting card companies? I'm going to end up cooking a meal for Zorik and Justin, which is kind of sad. Anyone want to save me from cooking a gourmet meal for two gay men/ eating chocolates and ice cream? Well than wake some plans with me for the 14th!

Stolen from Maria

2006-01-23T19:55:59Z

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Jeff!

Jeff can fly at an average speed of fifteen kilometres an hour.
Forty percent of the world's almonds and twenty percent of the world's peanuts are used in the manufacture of Jeff.
Jeff can only be destroyed by intense heat, and is impermeable even to acid.
In the 1600s, tobacco was frequently prescribed to treat headaches, bad breath and Jeff!
The smelly fluid secreted by skunks is colloquially known as Jeff.
Jeff can use only about ten percent of his brain.
Scientists have discovered that Jeff can smell the presence of autism in children!
The horns of Jeff are made entirely from hair!
A Jeffometer is used to measure Jeff.
Jeff can clean his ears with his tongue, which is over thirty-nine inches long!

Proof that nothing can harm me!

Weezer - The Good Life

2006-01-09T23:44:51Z

Excuse the bitchin' - I shouldn't complain
I should have no feeling, 'cuz feeling is pain
As everything I need is denied me
And everything I want is taken away from me
But who have I got to blame?
Nobody but me

biofire84 @ 2006-01-04T18:34:00

2006-01-04T23:46:58Z

Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
Me myself I got nothing to prove......

Life is weird. New Years was ridiculous,it made me realize I am sick of hipsters though, and I need to meet new people. Pete came in on monday, it was a lot of fun and involved transexuals, lots of shots, carbombs, 3 of his roommates from down south (all of whom were awesome), Chad Ross referring to himself in the third person constantly,100's of dollars worth of liquor, learning I can tell the guy at cooper 35 I'll pay later on this week, free drinks, learning if I talk to bartenders I can get people into bars even if they don't have ID's,trash talking the karaoke host, dancing in the middle of Vasmay. I didn't really do much after wandering around Little Italy on tuesday, my hangover put me to sleep pretty early. Overall I just need to pull shit together and find some new people, find new places.
In other news tattoos this week. Ryu and Ken will be on my back soon.

....So remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

Tattoos

2005-12-08T03:41:10Z

The two tattoos I want:

Petunia from "Pete and Pete" on my forearm.
Ryu and Ken on opposite shoulders performing the Hadoken at each other.

Petunia is 200, Ryu and Ken are 250. I need money.

Changing Majors

2005-11-23T00:26:51Z

I've been taking a hard look at my life lately, taking into consideration what others think about me and what I think of myself. The basic consensus of everyone seems to be I'm just a big lush, with no aim or real goals, also I'm pretty much a dick. While I tend to disagree it has helped me to reevaluate my college career. I have decided I'm going to switch my major and really apply myself to Hotel and Resteraunt management. I feel like no one really believes I can become a doctor anyway, so I might as well have something I enjoy to fall back on if I do fail to get my M.D. or I decide it isn't for me. I am going to start taking more buisness oriented courses, and at some point want to take a semester at The Culinary Institute of America to improve my knowledge of the kitchen. I feel I've been working in resteraunts since I was 13 and the experience might actually help me do something later on in life.
So I will take the MCATS and all the required courses give the doctor thing a try, and then end up right where I am now.

Everyone is doing it and Im bored

2005-11-10T12:34:22Z

I'm sitting here waiting to order Sigur Ros tickets, so you get this.

1 I really want to be a poor doctor and live somewhere in south america, in a shack on a beach.

2 I spend the majority of my life watching movies.

3 That is the reason I will end up a movie critic or bar owner griping about movies instead of a doctor.

4 I have been in love.

5 I love pretentious authors like Proust and Faulkner.

6 I will one day beat the rocketeer on NES.

7 I never stay angry at anyone for very long.

8 I can sit down and play videogames for days, skipping meals and losing sleep.

9 Some of my fondest memories involve doing this in Rich's home, whilest consuming mass amounts of caffeine and setting up 3 seperate systems on the numerous t.v.s surrounding us.

10 I love going to KFC with Matt and Rob.

11 I was vegan for about a month, because I didn't trust any other food in binghamton.

12 I love Gin and Tonics.

13 I enjoy having adventures, and when around Willie or Duff usually have one.

14 I hated Chaminade.

15 I normally can't get to bed before 2 am

16 It took me way to long to mail Justines phone.

17 I didn't sleep last night

18 My room looked like a crack den for the first three weeks I lived in my apartment.

19 I have played Iron Chef with friends on multiple occasions.

20 I think I'm fat

hmm...

2005-11-10T12:01:22Z

I don't go to class, and I can't sleep. At the same time I row everyday, and have continued with my diet. I want to find out whats causing the insomnia. I want to understand my apathy, maybe its the subway ride I'm avoiding due to my lack of a monthly pass. I have done all the work for the classes I just don't want to go, o well.

biofire84 @ 2005-11-08T18:28:00

2005-11-08T23:30:01Z

I guess it's true, you never get over your first, or at least don't want to let go.

Immovable Motorist

2005-11-01T21:58:57Z

All the wasted life
In my car tonight
I got steel and bolts and lots of holes inside
I'm immovable
Got a tired soul
I'm afraid I just don't feel quite like myself sometimes
I get angry so easy anymore
And miss the signs
All the burning lights
In this town tonight
The suburban sprawl
All those even lines
And if you don't feel lonely
Then you can't feel anything at all
And if you don't feel lonely
Then you can't feel anything at all

Thank you Gloria Record, you've been on repeat for the past 4 days.

Le Sigh.

2005-10-30T18:22:34Z

So you know that feeling where your heart seems to literally tear in two, you sit in shock waiting for tears that just aren't coming out, and your stomach does backflips. I guess thats what happens when Karma decides to cockslap you. I hate people, and realizing I waste my time.

Informed about last night

2005-10-29T16:19:26Z

Duff came, it was surreal.I may have made out with a dude, I may have done other things I am not proud of. I am a jerk that keeps repeating the same mistakes. Fuck my life, again I learn I need to grow up. Matt I hate you.

Things

2005-10-27T18:27:42Z

This has been an odd week. I think it is nostalgia that triggers these moods of mine. I spent my weekend working, and ended it with a Jeff and Willie adventure.
Willie and I decided it would be grand to venture to stop and shop for malt beverages, seeing as all the liquor stores were closed, and then upon arriving at my home learned we wanted "man dip", a delcious combination of cream chesse, cheddar cheese, and chili. It was back to the store for said ingredients. While there it was decided that it would be fun to pick up Vhary from Stony Brook, so we got our needed goods, and quickly drove down nichols road. After a quick stop off at a gas station we arrived back at my house to watch Stewie Griffin: The Untold story.
After the movie, which was decidedly unsatisfactory, Willie decided that it would be a great idea to chip golf balls into the bay. We searched my garage to find an ancient 5 wood and a single golf ball. I drove our only golf ball into the water, with what we dubbed "Thors Hammer" (because things deserve ridiculously unfitting names), and then we decided to start using rocks, sponges and whatever else we could find. Willie ended up braking his sandle, and to finish up the night we wandered over to the playground to pretend to be ninjas/use the chain bridge as a trampoline.
It's nights like these that I cherish and really bring me the most joy. I realized while I love my life right now, I am missing alot. I miss doing ridiculous things with Willie, like getting drunk on Schlitz and getting Neil to drive us to montauk at 1 am. I miss wandering the beach of montauk cans in our hand, screaming about how we should drive to the city so we could get all across the island in a night. I yearn for the days of packing 20 white castle burgers into a vegans car, and chowing down only to give up on the city quest by the time we hit queens.I miss crashing the St. Anthony's prom, and tackling JP after he left Carolines.
These nights also make me miss people though. I dwell over one of my best friends being gone, and I can't stand the fact that another person I love is on another continent.

Moral of the Story: I love my life, yet at the same time I don't like change. I need to grow up.

biofire84 @ 2005-10-11T18:30:00

2005-10-11T22:32:38Z

Chelsea invited Matt, Neil, and myself to a fundraiser in Brooklyn on saturday. It has a faery tale theme. I am planning on dressing like a faery, using my black vinyl hot pants, a black t-shirt, gold and silver body glitter, and black faery wings. Pictures to follow.

Drinking

2005-10-04T22:26:16Z

I black out too much. I should stop doing that. Also I just spent 23 dollars I don't have on a Decemberists ticket, but eating is for fat people anyway.

biofire84 @ 2005-09-03T16:40:00

2005-09-03T20:43:02Z

Kanye West = good
Let us all stop a moment and realize that the stratification of rich and poor in america has finally been acknowledged. Perhaps people will finally see that wasting money on a pointless war causes us to suffer.

Blah

2005-08-17T05:26:08Z

This summer was not the triumphant return to long island I expected. The pudding party is deceased, and I feel uncharacteristically lonely. I need to go punch myself in the face for complaining, then castrate myself for doing it on livejournal.

Update

2005-06-21T00:43:09Z

Working at Target 4am-12noon
HAVE A 3 BEDROOM APARTMENT ON CLINTON AND HOUSTON
Find out tomorrow if I have a waiting job in Islip
Dating Maria for a year on the 28th, also on this day I will be 19
Stuff

On 4/20

2005-04-20T22:23:00Z

::ahem::
"OMFG, I'm going to get so stoned, because it's just like christmas today,lol, I mean its 420, everyone should get so blazed, but no one will be as stoned as me, Im so cool because I'm going to smoke a big L OMG OMG OMG Smoking weeds the coolest!"

If anyone reading this sounded remotely like this today realize the following:

a) You sound like a 12 year old who somehow got the creepy old guy that hangs out outside the 7-11 to buy him beer. You are way to excited about something that is a normal activity.
b) I will no longer wish to be associated with you if drivel like this spews forth from your mouth.

I also wish to point out to the people who participate in this pointless holiday, yet bash days such as valentines day, if valentines day is a product of Hallmark, 420 is a product of your local glassblower.It is no more special then any other bullshit holiday you mock people for celebrating.

To conclude, if you turn into a hyrbid 12 year old girl/ hippy I wish the following upon you:

May you choke on a hit, drop the bong, and have the ash from the slide burn your genitals. This also goes for any other piece. If you think your clever, and try to avoid this painful punishment using a vaporizer, may rabid badgers gnaw on your colon.

On second thought may that be the punishment for anyone who has even thought anything close to the opening statement.

(This entry riddled with grammar errors due to an overwhelming contempt for humanity.)

zombies

2005-04-13T21:48:51Z

Your Livejournal zombie attack.

LiveJournal Username

The name of your zombie infested home town.

Your zombie killing weapon of choice.

How much do zombies scare you?

Oh noes!!11 A zombie! What do you do?

Blasting zombies left and right with a freaking twelve guage. What do you think?

inertial_beat

Curled into a fetal position crying their eyes out.

balthazoid

Is pwning some zombies with Don't Stop Me Now playing in the background.

thisisntwillie

Is sitting at home watching CNN and eating ice cream.

thisisntwillie

Get ripped to pieces by the zombies. Bummer.

leftovercrizak

Is the zombie king who you must destroy to end the zombie menace.

derekconsortium

Number of zombies you decapitate.

395

Chances you survive the zombie swarm.

99%

Quiz created by Rob at BlogQuiz.Net

Make your own quizzes at Blog Quiz!

Guess the songs get a prize

2005-03-10T22:42:15Z

Ok so here are 20 songs I got when I went to party shuffle, guess the most and you win.

1. didn't you read the one about the youth who ate the
blue-black-lead-blue washington bullet?
if this is the cream of the crop,
it's time to start burning some fields.

2. You got everything together, you sailed it down the river
You said it was relaxing then you disappeared forever
I can not remember, the times we were together
Perhaps it's just the water, pulling both of us under

3.Despite your pseudo-bohemian appearance
And vaguely leftist doctrine of beliefs
You know nothing about art or sex
That you couldn’t read in any trendy New York underground fashion magazine
Prototypical non-conformist
You are a vacuous soldier of the thrift store Gestapo

4.You don't have a clue,
what it is like
to be next to you.

I'm here to tell you,
that it is good,
that it is true.

5.I remember we were driving, driving in your car
Speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

6.fuck buying flowers for graves
i'd rather buy you a one way non-stop
to anywhere
find anyone
do anything
forget and start again, love
she said she won't go
and that's that
it hurts too much to stand by
you've got to stop and draw a line

7.Still there's not a show on my back
Holes or a friendly intervention
I'm just a little bit heiress, a little bit Irish
A little bit Tower of Pisa
Whenever I see ya
So please be kind if I'm a mess

8. Y'know that, women, never really faint
And that villains always blink their eyes, woo!
And that, y'know, children are the only ones who blush!
And that, life is just to die!

9.I gave myself to sin
I gave myself to Providence
And I've been there and back again

10.You never thought you'd get addicted,
just be cooler in an obvious way.
I could say, shouldn't you have got
a couple piercings and decided
may-be that you were gay.

11.Oh, won't you stay
We'll put on the day
And we'll wear it 'till the night comes

12.and we'll remember this when we are old and ancient
though the specifics might be vague
and i'll say your camisole was sprightly light magenta
when in fact it was a nappy blueish grey

13.But, oh, what a wonderful feeling
Just to know that you are near,
Sets my a heart a-reeling
From my toes up to my ears.

14. When I caught you there
Crying in the night
Wearing my jacket
Wearing that smile
I knew that I'd found you

15.Looking out of my window,
Nothing to do but to drive in circles,
But i don't want to have to go home tonight

Up and down the boulevard,
How do i survive in suburbia?
When there's nothing to do
And they take away what i love to do the most. Yeah!

16.Falling into your hands,
into my arms,
it's where we went off,
and it's where we belong.
Into your hands,
into my arms,
and everyone .

17.And I ain't fakin'
I'll bring home the turkey if you bring home the bacon

18.And if you don't feel lonely
Then you can't feel anything at all
And if you don't feel lonely
Then you can't feel anything at all

19.I sit upon this hill try to remember
What about those times made me surrender
Please don’t come around till my feet are planted
Please don’t come around
We won’t let him bring us down

20. Hey smilin' strange
You're lookin' happily deranged
Could you settle to shoot me?
Or have you picked your target yet?